Sunday, November 16, 2008

Mid-Morning Jog

My living room and balcony both face Lake Michigan and currently, being that it is after November 1st, there are no boats left in the harbor I face. It's always sad when the boats vacate the lake as it means winter weather is officially upon us. Because there's very little movement in that direction right now it more easily caught my eye this past week when I saw a lot of activity at Montrose Harbor. I looked outside and saw probably 16 emergency vehicles on the edge of the lake and then just as I noticed them I heard a rescue helicopter fly in. Within seconds the helicopter was hovering a few feet above the water and two wet suit clad divers jumped in. A few minutes after that, they were pulling a body out at the water. I could tell by the lack of haste on the rescuer's part once they were out of the water that the person was clearly already gone. The temperature outside was cold with periods of sleet. The water temperature that day was around 50 degrees the news said, which means a person would probably have 5 or so minutes before shock set in and then, of course, death.

I couldn't help but wonder how this person got into the water. Maybe it was a suicide? Maybe foul play somewhere else along the lake and the body just washed up here? Either way it was eerie and captivating, so I watched.

I later found out that the man who was recovered from the lake was a jogger. He lived a few blocks north of me and had accidentally fallen into the cold water. Another jogger phoned 911 when he saw him but by the time the rescuers arrived it was too late. The man who called 911 said he couldn't have been in the water more than a few minutes when he spotted him struggling. I started reading the tributes people had left on the comments section of the Chicago Tribune's story and my heart broke. Overwhelming accounts of what a bright spot this man was in people's lives. Educated, accomplished and apparently incredibly likable. Friends, family, neighbors.. people's lives who were touched by his kindness and example of faith. In a split second, gone. And only because he slipped or fell.

When I decide to be ambitious and jog outside rather than in the gym, going through that harbor and in that particular area of the park is always my favorite place to go. You can jog along the edge of the man-made barrier of the harbor; it's almost like a really wide sidewalk at the water's edge. It's probably a 5-7 foot drop off into the water from the edge and I've always thought it would be a pretty bad situation trying to get out if you fell in, there's no real easy way to get out in that area. Not to mention the "gasp effect" that often happens when you fall into water of that temperature - if your head goes under, your body forces a gasp and you potentially take in up to 2 liters of water. Within a few minutes your arms and legs are rendered useless in water temperatures below 55 degrees, not to mention the shock and disorientation that would make it difficult to get yourself to safety. It was cold and icy that day, I'm sure things were slippery. I can't imagine such a scary ending to your life on what started out to be simply a mid-morning jog.

We're sometimes so desensitized. I watched the rescue unfold through my binoculars like watching a story on the news - no real connection to what was going on. There was no attachment to the situation taking place, just an interesting event happening across the way. Possibly a murder, maybe an exciting story of mob activity. Either way it was simply a "wow, you don't see that every day" kind of thing. To later learn the name of the person I watched perish and read personal accounts of his life that disappeared in front of me is so tragically sad. No exciting Sopranos-style hit. No murder mystery like the movies. Rather, a neighbor for all intents and purposes. An architect. A church member. A Harvard graduate. A real person who set out for a mid-morning run and never got to come home.

We start out every day like a mid-morning jog. There's no way of knowing what will happen along the path. Sometimes it's an uneventful outing and other times we stumble or even fall down along the way. Some falls are greater than others and we never know when we're going to trip. We also never know when our last mid-morning jog will be. Sure keeps things in perspective. Make it count.

Rescue vehicles along Montrose Harbor shortly after the body was taken from the water:


May he rest in peace and God bless his soul,
M.db

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Human

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes
Clear your heart...
Cut the cord

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance,
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye
Wish me well..
You've got to let me go

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answers
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know is your heart still beating

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answers

You got to let me know

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answers
Are we human
Or are we dancer?

-The Killers

These lyrics have brought a lot of inspiration and been quite thought provoking to me lately for some reason. Plus, I just really like the song. It was apparently written in response to a statement that America is raising a generation of "dancers" (ie- puppets) rather than individuals.

"sometimes I get nervous when I see an open door. Close your eyes, clear your heart.. cut the cord."

That is a powerful line to me. There's many things in my life I want to do and nearly every accomplishment I've ever had, in retrospect, has had a specific moment of closing my eyes, clearing my heart and cutting the cord before the accomplishment could be realized. That open door is always scary.

Wave goodbye, wish me well..
you've gotta let me go,
M.db

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Mrs. Trannyfire

Mrs. Doubtfire is on one of the cinemax channels right now. It's the part of the movie where the children first find out that the beloved nanny is really their father when the son walks in on Mrs. Doubtfire peeing while standing up.

First of all, they recovered really fast from the shock, like 27-seconds-fast. "Dad?!" and then suddenly all is cool and hugs like the final scenes of a dramatic episode of Full House. I think it would be a lot more freaky to realize that your dad had been helping you with your homework and cooking your mac and cheese for the past two months while wearing a dress and fake tits. Secondly, way to break character by peeing standing up, Mrs. D., you should have totally peed sitting down. Everyone knows that rule number one of faking your gender in order to get close to your estranged children that you've been ordered to stay away from by the courts is to NEVER break character while in the vicinity of said children.

In other news, I put two condos under contract today. BAM! After lots of jumping through hoops to get these two deals accepted the work paid off this afternoon within a few hours of each other. They say today was more than likely the last 'warm' day of the year with temperatures reaching over 70 degrees- the last time Chicago will likely see the 70's until spring. It was absolutely beautiful outside with all the fall leaves rushing down the street in the perfectly temperate breeze. It's sort of sad to think of the frigid weather setting in as the days get darker and shorter. Snow showers are already in the forecast for Saturday. The weather will get colder but those closings will hopefully keep me warm come mid-December when they go to the title company! Yay. Seriously though, I'm just really happy the stress of these deals has led to a successful ending. Last holiday season I made a goal/resolution to close a certain dollar amount in sales in a one-month span at least once during 2008. I met that goal a few months back. I wish I could make just one more sale this month that would also close in December/before the end of 2008 along with the two deals from today. It doesn't look like that will happen but if it did/does I'd fulfill that new year's resolutions I made last December TWICE before the year was over. I suppose meeting said sales goal one time was good enough but how nice to keep a resolution and then double it! Maybe next year. I'll just focus on accomplishing my other resolution of solving all the world's problems by year's end:)

G'night,
M.db

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

History's Receipt

For better or worse, it is finally over.



M.db

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Blessed

Thank God halloween is over, I think it's such an obnoxious "holiday." I know, CRAZY for not liking it am I.. but you're the one getting your rocks off on dressing up in costume past the age of 12:)

I caught a cold that wouldn't let go of me for almost two weeks... until today! I think today is the first day back to 95% normal feeling. Gotta love the change in seasons! Rewind two weeks, before the cold, and my parents were in town for my birthday. They flew up for the weekend, took me to dinners, hung out with me for a few days and took me to see Jersey Boys. It was a really great weekend, I felt so loved and immensely lucky. Not just lucky to have two parents that love me so much but to have two parents that I really REALLY love right back. Jersey Boys was an incredible show, too! We all knew we'd probably enjoy it but had no clue how great it would actually be. Fantastic. Also, each dinner reservation that my mom had made for the weekend, she made as a "birthday dinner" with the restaurant when she called so they would make sure to do something special. She thought it was hilarious. I think after 4 birthday dinners in a row I felt sufficiently celebrated! They made sure to extend the celebration the entire time they were in town and I was so happy to spend my 28th birthday with the two people that have made these 28 years possible.

There's always something reflective about getting another year older. In the past I always thought that 27 would be a special age for me, I even blogged about that a few years back as I looked forward to it. It just seemed like it would be a good year, a good spot in the grand scheme of my entire life. Naturally as the 27th year of my life came to a close a couple weeks ago I looked back and asked myself ".. was it really all you hoped it could be? Was 27 really such a GREAT year?!" I stopped dead in my tracks. Before I could even finish the thought process I mentally smacked myself across the face. How dare I even question that? I began to think of the joys and blessings of the past 365 days. The mental, physical and emotional growth. The incredibly special people I surround myself with and am so fortunate to call my friends - the things I have been able to learn from them. I traveled to 3 different countries in my 27th year on this planet, two of which I had never been to. I hiked in the mountains of Yellowstone, visited friends in three different cities and had three different sets of friends visit me in my city. I made the biggest accomplishment, to date, in my career. I met 3 of the 4 goals/new years resolutions I set for myself with regard to work as well (I still have until December 31st for the 4th!). I've been blessed with health, happiness and above all the love of incredible people.

I had all of those things on my mind on the 17th, my birthday, as I was driving to the airport to pick up my parents. I counted each blessing, reflected on each exciting endeavor I was so fortunate to partake in over this past year and all the people I am so lucky to have in my life. Then I thought specifically about my parents that I was about to see. Two people that not only gave me the opportunity to live this life I've enjoyed for the past 28 years but kept giving and continue to give beyond the great gift of life. Two people who would travel a thousand miles just to make sure my day felt special. A mother who would take a bullet for me and father who would do the same. Two people who bless others to a level that sets an example I only hope to come close to one day. As family members we sometimes disagree, like most people do who are close. We aren't perfect, no one is, but my God how much better could it get.

No one has it the easiest or the hardest. No one has the perfect situation, and by no means do I write any of this to say "wow, look how great things are for me.." God knows I have my life's challenges. But rather in reflecting on a year of my life, one in which I used to think would be special for some reason, I realized it was quite special indeed. I approached the airport terminal to pick up the two people who love me more than anyone on this earth ever has and as I saw them standing there waiting for me I thought to myself "if it hasn't been what someone would consider to be a great year, I don't know what the definition of great is.."

birthday dinner number 3:


I am so blessed,
M.db