Your hurt, my burden

I wish I could take away all of your heartache right now. There are no words to describe what you're feeling and it's the worst of all feelings, pains of the heart always are.

I had a moment tonight where I was so frustrated thinking about you being pained and all the stages of grief and healing you have yet to go through but inevitably will. I just wanted to take it all away for you. I wish there was a fast-forward button for life. Maybe because we're so inclined to be impatient these days in the world of Tivo, e-mail and instant gratification? Probably so because I wanted to push the Tivo fast forward button (along with the sound effects it makes, by the way: "bloop, bloop BLOOP!") and get you through this hard time as fast as possible.

But until it's over..

Until the pain is all gone- I'll be here for you.
And when it's all gone- I'll still be here for you.
Forever more- I'll be here for you, whenever you need me.
After all, it's what you'd do for me and always have done for me.

You are my family and I am so sorry you are hurting.

M.db

Global Cooling

Thanksgiving was good, went to Texas. Back to Chicago, last night was the first good snow storm of the year, it was 15 degrees last night blah blah- and now you're up to speed.

I can't stand those groups that stand on the corners in Chicago and try to snag you as you cross the street to sign up for whatever cause they're representing. It's everything from Greenpeace to gay rights. Downtown they'll even stand on all four corners of an intersection and that way NO ONE gets by without these clipboard-clad activists stopping them for either a signature or a donation of some sort. Today it was Greenpeace and I couldn't just ignore the person. She introduced herself after all. Kate. Here's my thing, Kate, have you been paying too much attention to the environment to notice the economic environment? Don't ask me for money right now. I told her the membership to Greenpeace (though I think it's a good organization) wasn't something I was interested in as I'd probably be delinquent on the annual dues or just never pay them. Kate's response as I tried to walk off: "..but wait, don't you agree that global warming is a problem?" I paused, looked around in every direction then back at Kate who was shivering in the 19 degree temperature and replied "Fuck no, Kate, it's FREEZING out here." I chuckled a little and then back to a straight face and said "yeah, global warming is bad, but seriously.. no."

Kate let me know of a Greenpeace sponsored global warming rally I could go to this Saturday at 11am in Millennium Park, which will be free of course. I pretended to take mental note of the details in order to make Kate and myself both feel better by repeating the details back to Kate: "THIS Saturday... 11am? Okay. At Millennium Park? Ok perfect."

If Kate's smart she knows I won't be attending.
M.db